how to be grateful....

many have said, 'nothing lasts forever in this world'...and i believe this is a general truth no one can deny. so why many of us still chase something more...more than we can reach...more than we can earn...more than we can be able to do. have we become a greedy being in this planet? have we been controlled by those 'blinding materials'?
we are so greedy that sometimes we want one's belonging...very greedy that we're managed to execute whatever it takes to own them...and it happens to every one of us...even the kindest person, whether or not they realize it, reached a point where they can be the meanest creature for others.
i come up with a conclusion that the hardest lesson that have never been taught well by any teacher in this world is how to be grateful.
a teacher could babble on how hard his/her life with a standard salary in their pockets....civil servants waste their time reading newspaper, playing games on a computer, and begging for an incentive from many sources...parents could blame each other for their kid's uncontrolled behavior...people can always go on a strike and demand more...more...more.
we can't afford it...if any of you have an argument over it...gimme an example of people who have never regret something in their life!

Life is extremely short

two people died few days ago in my office... and it got me thinking, "no matter how hard we try to earn a living when the live itself has never been ours, we finally have to surrender to what so-called destiny for it leaves no precaution at all". i was shaking to recall years that went by and some scenes which have been so blurry in my head...i can't remember details of it...only rough sketch. TIME REALLY PASSES ME BY. i have wasted every single chance to taste a living.
so...in order to honor the life that will never be mine, i'll breath the air deep and let it all out as if my soul would fly free to the sky. i'll walk firmly as if my feet won't leave the land. i'll enjoy every single time given...for i might not know anything about tomorrow...and i should cherish this ignorance.
if i have to spent hundreds from my salary to buy things that could make me smile for a week, i'd give it a shot. if i need to save the whole salary, hypothetically, for mom and dad to give them 'home' they're searching for, with all my heart i'll starve myself the whole month.
because life turns out to be extremely short.......so i have to be happy...haven't i? happy is the day i live with no tears and regrets...happy is when mom and dad gives their best hope on my lap...happy is to live only for today but hoping for the best for tomorrow.
so i'm crossing my fingers right now, hoping i'll wake up tomorrow to make myself and three most important people in my life happy.