last night when i was ready off to bed, i checked my cell-phone...see if anyone was still awake...and i saw you publishing new entry on your contact. you put your picture and your boyfriend on it. all of a sudden, i was so pissed that i wanted to text you and say 'what the heck are you thingking?'. oh my dear friend, of course i love you...of course i care whether or not you're happy. that's why i keep distance...that's why i let you go..because you love the person i hate so much and for that i have mourned my lost.
my dear friend, i am not a forgive-and-forget person...i remember. you were there..you saw how i defended myself in front of your boyfriend. you knew i was not responsible for it, but you let him accuse me...point at me. and then you said he was sorry, but never once he apologized. how do you think i'd feel? did you know i cried after that? did you know why? i cried because i learnt that day that i meant that much to you. afterall, he was your lover and apparently i couldn't compete with that. and i am not asking you to. only then, i knew i lost you.
oh dear...all i want is you to be happy...but if happy means you have to be with someone who has done shady things to me, maybe i'll step aside...i'll watch you from here...
i guess this is goodbye...
