i once read a quote from the late Mother Theresa, 'I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love'. my mind, then, flew back to the day where some people said that i was deeply in love with my boyfriend. it was like i had a punch in the face. why is it so shameful that someone loves her boyfriend so much? mostly, people suggested to give only half of your heart to them. believe it or not, it really made me rethink of the way i loved him. but then when i read that line i realize something...i shouldn't be ashamed. it's a gift. i haven't been in love before and yet i had a chance to experience a deep and passionate love to someone...a love that burns...and for the first time of my life, i was brave enough to dream.
so what if he leaves me...so what if he betrays me...if it eventually hurts me..if loving someone that deep finally drags me to the bottom, at least i know i have not wasted this chance. and then i remembered my very good friend who quite recently experienced lost. and yet she still feels the fire within her heart everytime she thinks about that man. who can blame her...who would say it's just not right? i would stand next to her if someone happens to say that to her. don't worry sis...keep loving someone that deep until finally you no longer feel the pain of losing him because i believe it's not a waste at all even if he does not belong to you. you just prove that 'love doesn't have to be together' exists...that what you have to that man is an ultimate one. be proud that you have loved someone that genuine. be proud that you made yourself a true lover.
and i will always love you, sweetheart...with all my heart.
