lately, people have been really annoying by questioning me whether or not i'd tie the knot this year. it's not because i don't want them to know...it's because i don't really know how to put my ignorance in words.
see people, i really don't have any idea! if you could tell me what my father would say when my boyfriend propose me then i'd give you, guys the answer right away...because i've been really scared myself these past few weeks. i'm afraid daddy won't let me...i'm afraid this just won't come true. i'm holding on nothing right now...even the love i have for him cannot assure me that this would lead us to a happy ending. those two men i love the most in this world...how can i hurt each one of them? how can i win them both? all i have right now is faith...
can't you see people, while you ask that question, i've been preparing myself for the worst end. if at the end of the day, my father asked me not to win my boyfriend over him, in the name of love i'd stop...i'd stop...and though i'm not sure how i'd live my days without him...i gotta choose.
still, if all end well..if finally daddy lets me go...i'd find myself very sorry. deep down i know, this is not how he wanted me to be. i know he wants to walk me down the aisle...but he just can't. and how do you think i feel?
oh people, before you asked that question, i have built faith piece by piece..i have walked the step even if i haven't seen the whole staircase.
