Thursday, May 15, 2008

Life is extremely short

two people died few days ago in my office... and it got me thinking, "no matter how hard we try to earn a living when the live itself has never been ours, we finally have to surrender to what so-called destiny for it leaves no precaution at all". i was shaking to recall years that went by and some scenes which have been so blurry in my head...i can't remember details of it...only rough sketch. TIME REALLY PASSES ME BY. i have wasted every single chance to taste a living.
so...in order to honor the life that will never be mine, i'll breath the air deep and let it all out as if my soul would fly free to the sky. i'll walk firmly as if my feet won't leave the land. i'll enjoy every single time given...for i might not know anything about tomorrow...and i should cherish this ignorance.
if i have to spent hundreds from my salary to buy things that could make me smile for a week, i'd give it a shot. if i need to save the whole salary, hypothetically, for mom and dad to give them 'home' they're searching for, with all my heart i'll starve myself the whole month.
because life turns out to be extremely short.......so i have to be happy...haven't i? happy is the day i live with no tears and regrets...happy is when mom and dad gives their best hope on my lap...happy is to live only for today but hoping for the best for tomorrow.
so i'm crossing my fingers right now, hoping i'll wake up tomorrow to make myself and three most important people in my life happy.