Thursday, May 20, 2010

guilt...

my dear Lord,

forgive me for i have traded my parents dream with my own happiness. for that, i might carry this guilt along the way. and let it burn me to death. let the flame purify this soul.

my dear father,

forgive me......... for this daughter you've raised, to whom you entrust the hope and faith, has let you down. just so you know, before i made this decision, i have cried the impossible nights. but as much as we hated each other sometimes...we both have survived the most painful path together. and i guess it was the same reason you told me...that you'd let me go to someone who could ensure my happiness (because you couldn't provide it yourself...you said) that you were willing to drag down the pride and dignity you had within...for me.

for that, i would carry this guilt along the way.

and may God forgive me....