lately...i've been wondering. how do we measure the love people give to us?. is it by their gesture...their attention...their passion...their words...or what? because i have found in my recently-ended relationship that love can simply fade away..just like that...like you have never been there before...and you have never been loved before.
but it's like you have lost a toe...it's gone but the feeling that it's still there remain stronger...painfully stronger. and i questioned it every night...how much he loved me...why it seemed so easy for him to give up on me over a nasty word. isn't love supposed to be forgiving...isn't love supposed to let go...isn't love supposed to be too precious just to be thrown away?but the fact that it's gone; the fact that it's ended only made me feel like i have made a bad investment. i have learnt to love...i have learnt to surrender, but i lost even more. i was crash and burn!
and i cried for the first time of my life for a man. i cried for all the things he gave and took from me. i have no regret...whatsoever, because as how painful as it feels, i was once very happy. but you see...i stumbled many times in my life, i got up afterall. i still suffer the heartbreak, but i don't feel like crying anymore. just wondered..'he loves me...he loves me not..'
2 comments:
sis... i know how hard it was for you that time..
and u know what sis...
what you`ve been wondering that time is all mine now...
is it really that easy for him to ease me? he said he love me... but how come he left me that easy.
like " nothing " meant something
like " US " was not a HUG part of his life.
... where is GOD when i need to talk... when i need a hand... :(
same goes to me right now.i know how u feel.be strong okay.
umm..i like ur blog and i found ur blog after i'm looking aku dan tuhanku poem.
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