this is what happens when the job is no longer your resource to live. you become a dull, dry and sad person. there were this moments when i looked out through the window and prayed..'oh my dear Lord, who am i kidding? i am not happy and as much as i wanted to fit in... i am an unfit employee here'
the past few weeks, i have moved only for the sake of moving with unchecked soul and surely unchecked passion. i am not longing either to see the paperwork or the bosses or the colleagues.
and then there was this moment when i have actually believed that i could do nothing about this tiny little brain inside my head. this entity that goes with the job does not fit the little brain. the kid worked too hard and it might surrender before its time. it must be nice to be that person who manage to figure out solutions for every task that they've assigned to...a person like my husband for instance..must be very nice to feel not afraid of anything coming ahead.
i seriously don't know how can i take this any longer...i am completely lost.
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